God's grace, his love, his protection, his majesty is an amazing thing. I am not just saying this as a statement of fact but also as a reminder. Life is so hectic recently, so uncertain as to what I am supposed to do in relationships, friendships, work. It is just all up in the air. Regardless I know that GOd is there even in those times that my humanity makes it impossible to see, he is there.
I just need forgiveness for my pride, for my lustful heart, for my lack of faith, lack of trusting in you. I am sorry that I constantly hurt you with these things Lord. It grieves me so much, my heart is overwhelmed. I have so much school stuff and I am just not physically or emotionally able to do it. I don't know how I will ever be but I know you will get me through because you are faithful. But it just hurts, I am not good with stress I don't really know how to handle it. So I guess I pray for your peace in those anxious situations, in those times that are to hard to bear. I know you said that you will never leave me or forsake me and in all things through prayer and petition give bring my requests to you so your peace that surpasses all my understanding will guard my heart and mind in you. My lack of faith often keeps me from holding onto that.
Lord I want to bring be back the awe I once had for you. I was talking to my friend about it a little last night and I know you are working on me. Those times I have been able to go out into your creation recently have been great. Just seeing your work, seeing you in the trees, in the animals, the rivers, the hills and knowing that my Father created all these things. Knowing that he had the wind blow through the trees, and these birds chirping right now simply so I could ride by and be filled with joy at their beautiful song. I know you are working on me I just feel so lame recently. Everything in your creation is a reason to rejoice. My friends favorite verse "the joy of the Lord is my strength" I want to use that as even when I feel horrible I can just rejoice in the strength I have in you after all I can do all things through Him who gives me strength, right? It is odd how I know that to be true but I put you in a box. I pray that I can take you out of that box, that I can trust in you to "move mountains" with my prayers. That I can pray with faith rather than doubt or disbelief.
Guide me Jesus in my life. I am trusting in you that you will give me the strength I need. I want to be bolder in my faith I want these words to be a driving force for me "I WILL NOT BE SILENT, I WILL NOT BE QUIET ANYMORE" Lord that is my prayer. I demand of myself that I stop being lame, bashful, defeated, faithless.
Lord I know I am sinful, but I am not a sinner. I am a saint I have been set apart by the sacrifice you made on the cross. Through this sacrifice you have made me holy and I thank you for that Jesus. You are truly amazing, more than I could ever imagine. Lord I pray that this prayer, this confession would be on my heart daily from now on. I pray that their would be more like it and that you would continue to teach me things about myself that I never knew.
I love you God, continue to be with me. Be with all my friends and their struggles Lord thank you so much for their blessing to my life, watch over and protect them with your angels. This is a new beginning for me you are new every morning thank you for that. You ARE my strength.