…things like Jesus. He gives me that hope that it will all be okay–not that life is going to be easy by any stretch, but in the end it will all be okay. I am actually really happy and content right now, and I praise Him for that. He has given me the strength to cope in a manner that I would like to say is worthy of His name. Of course it is not fully worthy of Him, but all I can do is strive.
…things like shows. I went to a MeWIthoutYou show last night, and that band brings me endless joy the way they get so into their music and just have fun. I love it–I love seeing the singer smile because I know he has gone through some tough stuff and he has come out the other side. You hear it through his words; it is amazing to be so honest through your music.
…things like writing songs. I don’t write amazing songs. I just write normal, elementary (if you will) type songs. There is nothing deep and profound about them, just stuff that I feel, witness and push through. But somehow God uses those songs to mend my broken heart, to point me towards Him and my love for Him. Long after Coolfield passes away, the songs will still be in my heart and I will sing until my last breath. God is worthy of that, anyways.
…things like friends. Friends are a recurring theme of joy in my life. I can’t tell you where I would be without them. My friends help form who I am as a man of God, whether Christian friends or not. They are all beautiful and all wonderful, and through the good and bad times I learn a lot from them. I tip my hat to you, friends, for the beauty and color you bring into my life. Thank you for challenging me, for laughing with me and crying with me. Thank you for making fun of me and letting me make fun of you. So yeah, God…thanks for my friends.
…things like hope. I can’t imagine living without hope. Maybe I just never have gotten low enough yet that I felt there was no hope, but I can’t imagine it. I have been what I consider to be low, and I always knew it was there whether I could see it or not. The hope I feel from God gives me reason for breath in the morning, gives me reason to share His love with all those around me (though some may be buttheads!). His hope keeps me going.
…things like nature. I love riding my bike and I love the beach. I love camping and the smell of campfires. I love waking up in the morning and hearing birds sing. I love sunrises and sunsets, snowcovered trees, and the sound of rushing water. I am at peace when I am out in my God’s creation. I finally get rest; I finally am fulfilled. This is why I ride my bike.
…things like helping others. I can’t tell you how much I love helping people through hard times–not that I can fix anything, but to be there and just have that proximity that says I CARE ABOUT YOU is huge. I love when someone walks up to me and says, “I was having a really bad day, and I turned on your CD and my day improved.” Wow…praise God for that. I didn’t do anything in that. That is all God working through me, and I am so pleased to be used, to share the love and excitement of life that I have.
…things like God. Yeah, I could be theologically correct and say that is the same as saying I love Jesus, but whatever. I love everything about You, You knew me before I was born, You loved me before I knew how to speak, You watch over me in my sleep, You fill my lungs with air to breathe, You sweep me off my feet in times of intense joy, and You hold me in your arms when I have lost all hope. You are the best daddy a boy could ask for (and You have given me a great earthly daddy as well). My problems seem like nothing when I think about You and how great You are. Thank You for loving me, thank You for choosing me, thank You for everything.
I wrote this simple song for You, “Let Me Count the Ways”:
I love you like a rainbow on a cloudy day
Giving light to grey, grey skies and you
Wipe my tears away
I love you like the starlight
Singing their heavenly song
Singing down with beauty and grace while I
I love you like the snow falling on the trees
Winter white with mixed sunlight and nature’s
I love you like hot cocoa on a cold winter night
Sitting on the porch with my best friends
Laughing to firelight
<3 Bryce p.s. time for a bike ride