Recently I went to San Francisco to do some missions work (see photo album YWAM). There are not a lot of photos with the houseless and homeless people we ministered to in order to respect there privacy, but it will give you an idea.
Anyways, it has become more and more apparent to me that I need heart surgery. not in the literal sense, as far as I know the old ticker is doing just fine, but on an emotional and spiritual level. Nothing seems to move me anymore, at least not in the way I think it should. I hear some of the most heartbreaking stories and I think "man that's rough" and that's it. I see people crying and though I empathize, I do not feel it. It is a hard situation for me. I consider myself a pretty emotion based person and to have the emotion robbed from me is very hard.
in the book for Romans Paul says to "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn." I have done this before, I look back to when my friend Julian was in a horrible motorcycle accident which God saved Him from, PRAISE GOD! But truthfully there are few times I am moved with enough emotion to cry. I realize it may seem odd to want to cry, most people try to avoid it at all possible but sometimes I feel like I have no pulse, that I am just coasting through life and nothing can move me anymore. I am not satisfied with that. I desire to feel. So I am going to search out the cause for my jadedness or callousness. Please pray that I discover this because I want to be moved again…
Open the shades and let the Son's light come in
Remove the scars that keep apathy in
Touch my heart in the way only you can
My Lord, My Father, The Great I am..